tragedy with great timing.

today is a day to laugh,

to look life in the eyes and make a jest about how everyone is a joke. 

today is a day where i look at the world and make fun of its foolishness. 

today is a day where i feel beautiful after counting my pimples and not fitting into small jeans. today is a day where i feel like i could eat the world and never gain a pound. 

today is a day where i could go out and be whatever i want and no one would question me. 

today is a day i have moved on from all of your bull shit. 

today is a day to write stories to sing tunes, and to be heard. 

today is a day to be alive. 

swings

Speak.

I cannot hear you. 

Write. 

There are no words.

Sing. 

There is no music. 

Dance. 

There are no steps. 

Leave. 

I cannot walk. 

Climb. 

I have no hands. 

Try. 

I have no ambition. 

There is no reason, 

without love. 

italy

i never thought i could love anyone but myself. Now i know I can't love anyone else, but you. But you make me think maybe i wont die alone. 

september 16th, 2009

It was just last night i awoke from dreams of you. 

haunting dreams where you wouldn't sepak to me. 

wher you would just look away disappointed. 

It was just yesterday, i went to school dreading the feeling i would get when i had to see you. 

it was just today, you told me you love me. 

its just now, im scared you lied. 

i just want you to know, you belong with me. 

september 13th, 2009

another night lying in my bed wishing you never had to leave. 

whispering words no one else had ever heard. 

knowing we were best friends, 

but wishing for more. 

we talked, you held me. 

you told me you wished you could stay,

so do. 

you didn't even want to think about her, 

so dont. 

that night i woke up three times,

forgeting you have left. 

when i remembered, it stung.

and then  i smiled. 

you left me bruised. 

i woke up hurting. 

i loved it. 

"got pink and black and blue for you" 

fuck it.

city and colour

if you were to leave, and fulfill someone elses dream. 

i think i might totally be lost. 

i wish i could do better by you, 

cause thats what you deserve.

and when you cry,  

a piece of my whole dies, 

knowing that i may have been the cause. 

please know that im yours to keep,

my beautiful girl.